「soapgirl dreams」

finally...

Fri, 29 May 2009 14:17:51 GMT

...recovered from a 3-4 day bout with flu. ugh. i don't even know how i got sick, godknows i haven't gone out of the house in days >.<

got my back pay and am rich for the moment. am -still- waiting for a job ^^

went malling with sibs + 'rents + bf.

ate: pizza and ice cream and shopped.

v. v. happy. ^^

hello, world!

Thu, 14 May 2009 09:53:14 GMT

i've been unemployed for a month and some now and am -still- in job-hunting mode.

employ me?

please?

somebody?

anybody?

lol. now that's out of the way, dex and i are looking for a house--but this time to -rent-. owner's daughter is coming home end of july, meaning we must vacate premises. dex has gotten attached to subdivision though (so have i), so we went motor-ing around to look for some.

ugh. wasnt much, really, highlight would have been me screaming all the way downhill:

baby~! noooooooooo~!!!

*snort*

thats me, living life on the edge.

anyway, people who have not been texting me and who have quite possibly changed numbers and who do not know my new number... i'll pm you ^^

heart love.

the last day

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 00:33:08 GMT

so i was in the office dialing and pretending to work when i decided to go take my first break and play psp in the pantry, then fifteen minutes when dexter popped in to collect me, i sat at my post and entered my user name and ....

poof.

"invalid user name"

=P

i take that to mean that my log-ins have expired, therefore:

i have officially resigned.

so basically, the month of april will be comprised of sleeping, playing, eating, watching, internetting (^^), eating, sleeping, and occasionally meeting up with friends.

god help my waistline.

of course this also means i will not have any cash to burn =( (bummer) but dexter has so kindly said:

rest for as long as you need baby, i'll take care of you.

i love my baby ^^

oh, and we hit the one year mark last march 21 .. and we spent it in Ark Avilon in pasig, near tiendesitas. it's the mini version of the 7.5 hectare place in rizal, where i want to *whine* gooooo...

"aminals".

have been consistently happy, which i thought impossible >.<

boo.

happily stressed

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 00:08:00 GMT

went online last week and googled houses+sale+or+rent+to+own+cainta and came up with 86,200 results, more than half of which are crap and should not be bothered with. >.<

have narrowed my list (dexter chuckles. apparently, i make too many lists.) to six, further divided into two 'dream-on'-s, one 'if we have no choice', and three 'likely'-s. ^^

yay.

one is a promising rent-to-own place in Valley Golf.
will drop by, nod approvingly, and pray its within our budget.
mommy has, surprisingly, said that she can take out a loan to help me and dex get settled.
my mom! lol.

seems like she decided that there's nothing they can do about it. only thing she said to me was:

"make sure the deeds are in your name."

lol. mommy.
dexter agreed to it anyway.

here's to (hopefully) having a home by the end of the year!

+^+

while the house-searching is going well, the wedding plans are having me chewing on my nails with worry.

hm. have eight on my list. ~~four 'hopefully'-s~~--ah hell. no sub-categories yet.
sigh. mlina, will sometime drop by and go through them.

wedding is tentatively set for November 21 of 2010 (or 2011). was supposed to be december 21, but prices skyrocket decemberish and stuff. want a -ber wedding. meep.

MUST have a house before we get married.
MUST get married before starting a family.
(babies! mine! ours! *swoons*)

+^+

oh, oh--hit eleven months yesterday ^^ vv happy. (dexter says, has it ONLY been eleven months?) and, in (part of) his wonderfully non-mushy text: its been a blast!

it HAS been a blast.

he gave me a blue stuffed penguin i promply christened "Pumpkin".
will post pics asap ^^

all in all, life is good.

Writer's Block: Half a Glass

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 10:41:53 GMT

Do you consider yourself an optimist, a pessimist, or a realist?

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this particular writer's block just about caught my eye, as dexter and i have talked about it before. i'd say 'realist', but he would probably just snort loudly and roll his eyes, so admittedly, i guess 'pessimist' hits the goal. *wince*

hunh.

currently trying to look for a house as he and i are very much serious about buying one. why? well, that way we can start saving for the wedding. =P

we also have a place in mind, Bato Springs. have not been there, so if you have, message me please! only reason it's on the list is because i read about it in a random blog, and turns out the owners are dexter's sister's husband's relatives.

ah. pinoys.

sis, shall we plan? :)

heartlovehugglesmush

~ * ~ * ~ 2009 ~ * ~ * ~

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 23:53:37 GMT

for the *first* time i am able to access LJ while at work--(and friendster, and multiply, and facebook, and...heh). thank you God for New Years.

and of course, speaking of which:

a happy one to everyone :)

i'm giddy and bouncy in general, (even more so than christmas/birthday) for some odd reason, maybe because--like everyone else--i SO welcome the chance to start on a clean slate. (as my messages would have said, in various ways).

it has been a crazy, wild, surprisingly FREE year for me.

i've been sick three times this year (all of which required doctor visits), i've met up with old friends (not as much as i would have liked, but its a good start ^^) while making new, i've argued (and made up) with my family, i've had actual spending money (LOL), i've acquired, thanks to dex, a fair assortment of gadgets, i've bought a washing machine (how domestic!), i've cried, i've laughed, i've been up and i've been down.

i've lived. there's just no better way to place it.

it's 2009. i'm twenty-$!*&^$*@%^-three, and i don't feel old at all.

life is good.

after all...

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 17:02:13 GMT

...i am happy.

look a what?

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 16:27:49 GMT

just wondering. :) i don't know the asians here, so i'm posting it in case someone recognizes someone and gives me reason to be proud. ^^

on modelmayhem.com

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 14:58:50 GMT

am planning to join modelmayhem.com but i'm sorely lacking in pics >.< _defyingtheodds and noble_scarlet, since you're already members... help? :) amd if any one has old pics of me worth mentioning, can you upload it on LJ? ^^

thanks guys...

ten more days to christmas! :O doesnt feel like much though.

XOXOXO

wtf...

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 05:39:47 GMT

still a little shocked over the glorietta bombing, if only for the fact that i was there exactly an hour before it happened.

is it so surprising?

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 05:29:15 GMT

well, i'm single again. not that it particularly matters, i don't find it that shocking anymore. what did you expect anyway? that i'd actually last with the rebound boy? not that he was actually a rebound boy to begin with, but then, hell, shit happens right?

depressed? not really. a bit. maybe. yes.

there is always regret.

i hate myself for shifting from one relationship to another with my eyes closed and heart open to whoever seems willing to offer me a safe spot.

pahabol

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 05:55:43 GMT

i'm not even sure how i forgot this.

W/Th/F = 8:00pm-4:00am

Sun/M = 4:00am-12:00nn

biochemist_ej bes, meet up din tayo... please.

my ged!

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 05:52:20 GMT

i don't even know how many things i've missed.

first things first, _defyingtheodds, i'm sorry for the late greeting: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! gyah! i've been separated from society because i changed my number (again!) and it's now:

09165746706

well, collections is fun though i must say debtor contact SUCKS. i am now intimately familiar with privacy guards and answering machines, and screechy fax tones.

blooper number one: (not by me though)
agent: "sir, can i hold you?"
debtor: "well, you can try."

^^

also, i've moved out of the house. (waits for shock and random gasps to subside) i now live in santolan pasig, in Pasig Royale Mansion, with two of my workmates who i absolutely heart.

also, jesse and i are over. and if you doubt it's gonna last for long, well, you can tell that to my boyfriend Mark (sis--not the same Mark who was a total shithead) and we'll see how he takes it. *shrug* nyikes.

text me guys okay? i hardly ever get to go online (obvious ba) because it costs so much here and i haven't done anything but eat, sleep, and work.

mlina-sis, slpwlkngdreamer, when are we gonna meet? a celeb is in order since i passed the frickin' board exams and thankfully, my mom doesn't care if i become a nurse or not as long as i'm happy.

noble_scarlet, _defyingtheodds, let's meet up din...fweesh?

awaiting your texts then... :)

i miss you guys. really badly.

guys...

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 12:39:04 GMT

I PASSED THE JUNE 2007 BOARD EXAM! :)

well...

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 11:41:34 GMT

so, where shall i start?

i started training last august 6, and it was really fun, to say the least. my entire wave graduated (after lots of tears and anguish and trying to tutor everyone who needed it) into PST. *sigh* it's boring. really. but i want to go back already because i love them so much and it beats staying at home with nothing to do but hear repeated pleadings of "krys, fix your room", and variations thereof.

so...that's it. somehow it seems a lot more boring when you're writing it down.

i'm in right beside robinson's galleria everyday at 8.00am-4.00pm so just text me (if ever...super conditional).

i'm waiting for the board exam results even though i had a dream last night that my name wasn't on the list...so there. *sighs* depressing.

mooooooooooo.....

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 04:21:34 GMT

hmmmmf. haven't posted in a while. went all crazy getting my NBI, SSS, transcript, and all that crap. why does everything in this country take days to get? hmf.

anyway, i got in convergys kasi, all that's left is for me to get my training schedule and then i'm officially going to be a working girl. i wish people (meaning my mom and jesse) could be a bit more supportive though. i'm fine with the night shift. so i wish they'd just let me be instead of texting out of nowhere with things like, "krys, found a call center here that blah blah blah..."

sigh.

ohsure i know they're just concerned but... still...

sigh.

hp mania again, i see. i'm sad because i don't have the book. aside from that, i haven't returned silverscar82's Half-Blood Prince yet--i'm sorry, chibi-sensei!!!! *bows*

alanna_feuery and tsuzuki_meloi, sorry, been really busy. i really want to see you guys but funds are running low kasi, so i'm not sure i can even go to a mall and survive >.<

sigh.

crappy.

okioki...gonna go check out my other online thingies...minna-san...i miss you guys. sorry, i don't have load to text...umm...anyone.

sigh.

screw this.

sorry!

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 00:40:52 GMT

waah!

apparently, i am an idiot. this post was for the 3rd of July, but for some reason, it was *locked* on 'private' or whatever.

again, sorry >.< hope you at least get to read it. *glares at computer* this time.

_____________________

happy birthday mad_maeglin!!!!

i miss you... we haven't spoken in ages, true, because we've already established the fact that i am a crappy correspondent, but rest assured that i have *ahem* extremely ~~hentai~~ errrrr i mean FOND memories of/with you... :)

miss you love. really.

well...

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 13:30:36 GMT

jesse and i have decided to still celebrate our "anniv" even if i've asked for an opportunity to be an astronaut (meaning, 'time' and 'space') so i guess i'm happy. he's spent a lot more time in my house than usual, which he usually does when he is in imminent danger of losing me.

well.

yun. it's okay. *musters up a smile*

hope you liked my previous post. it took all of one gut-wrenching hour to turn it out. >.< can anyone think of a title?

anyway, i miss you guys... wish i could go out, but i have no work yet so i'm stuck helping out at home. (and i use the term 'helping' loosely).

sigh. well... i'll just play dota then. >.

something lang...

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 11:17:20 GMT

came into mind after hearing dashboard's 'currents' -- i guess it's depressing when someone dedicates the damn thing to you. confusing, too.

The air is visible around you
Rising up and off your lips
In slow currents
And I watch
As your face is framed in it’s
Slow currents
Drifting curls, a trailing path
A long drag becomes
A tress of blue and ash

If it is born in flames
Then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can

If it’s got to end
Then let it end in flames
Let it burn all the way down

The air is visceral around us
Turning in its simple steps
On slow currents
And I watch

As it pirouettes and spins
In slow motion
A long drag comes
A slow dance

In a halo of ember

If it is born in flames
Then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can

If it’s got to end
Then let it end in flames
Let it burn all the way down

All the way down

And if this is ever meant to end
Then I hope it ends where it began

So hot with love we burned our hands
If this is ever meant to end

Then I hope it ends where it began
So hot with love it burns our hands

If it is born in flames
Then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can

If it's got to end
Then let it end in flames
Let it burn (Let it burn)

If it’s got to end (Let it burn)
If it’s got to end (Let it burn)
It ends where it began
So hot with love
It burns our hands

we pride ourselves on our conversation
but we never talk of the things that matter
somehow, it is always the small things that are spoken
and deeper hurts are left unsaid

and we speak of Endings like we don’t mind
not knowing exactly where we started—but i mind, love, i do
cos when we lie intertwined, it isn’t me you think of
and the hand i hold in mine may as well be someone else’s

i’m warm in your embrace
but there’s an inner chill that i can’t place
where do your thoughts go
when you are inside of me?

and i know that you only take me because i’m here
and it’s convenient to find someone willing to fill you up
at least for a moment—well, i am willing and i am ready
to stand in for someone who isn’t me

so i wrap myself up prettily for you
and i wait until i’m wanted
but please love don’t take so long
please don’t take so long

i am safe in your embrace
but tears are streaming down your face
what do you grieve for
when you are inside of me?

you speak of love as if you’ve known it and of pain as if you’ve felt it
there is nothing worse than both combined
you only want what you cannot have...
but i am here—

why do you cry when you think i can’t see?
who do you dream of when you’re inside of me?

i knew this would be different but now i’m not so sure
cos i’ve been looking for you but you were looking straight through
i smiled and you smiled back
but you didn’t really see me

i’m wrapped up prettily and i’m waiting in the cold
you know how i freeze too easily
you know how i break too readily
you know me—maybe more than a little too well

i am loved in your embrace
but i can never take her place
why do you bother
when you are inside of me?

.....

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 00:03:43 GMT

thanks.

just finding it very hard to find reason to be happy with who i am lately. *sighs*

sorry, sis, lost my inspiration again.

...

Sat, 23 Jun 2007 10:01:26 GMT

im not a good person. not really. i just pretend to be.

happy...just because.

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 11:06:26 GMT

was inspired enough to post quite a lot on devArt, please go check. :) ^^ i haven't written in, like, a looong time, so please comment.
oh, and:

Rules: Post the explanation of where your username(s) came from. Then tag TEN users whose explanations you'd like to hear. If you are tagged, then post the explanation to your page.

basically, mlina thought it up for me. (didn't you, love?) and everyone thought that it suited me pretty darn well, and i really, really liked how it sounded, so i've taken to using it practically everywhere. :)

tag, you're "it"!!
alanna_feuery
biochemist_ej
silverscar82
bgirl_shai
coffeebased
rainpainter

too tired to post anymore. *yawns* maybe tom. :)

hugs!

here we go...

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 03:50:14 GMT

*sigh*

it's the board exam om June 10-11 and i've busted my brains out studying. if this doesn't do it, nothing will.

*deep sigh*

of course i'm nervous, but i just want to get things over and done with.

tch. kuso...

hm. really bad mood lately. maybe i'll post after the board.

after a looooong silence...

Wed, 02 May 2007 01:17:52 GMT

i'm more or less back in the online world ^_^ (keyword being: more or less). any~hoo, updates...i have a new number, yes, but because i lack required brain cells i don't memorize it and i forgot to bring a copy. yes, smart, innit? anyway, i WILL text the necessary people when i buy load... which will be...some other time. hmm.

so the board exams are on every one's mind lately except yours truly...i don't really want to think about it, i might hurt myself. T_T i'm more focused on fandoms i created with my sister--as in my blood relative. hehe.

and yes, for the 1000th time and counting jesse and i have kissed and made up and argued and made up again on and on in a vicious but extremely *ahem* loving cycle. *snicker* if there's such a thing. hey, no one ever said it would be easy, ne?

i'll post my number once i grab myself a brain. :)

love you guys! and to the ones i met during mlina's birthday thingamajig, i heart you and hope we get to spend more time together--which will probably not happen for a long, long, looong time. ^_^ gomen ne.

so i will run now.

hugs and kisses and everything in between ~^

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 22:53:49 GMT

im only online because i was smart enough to get to class late so i'm waiting for the break so that i can sneak in undetected ^^

hehe, sorry for the loooong silence. don't have time to read all your journals either so im not gonna be very updated. anyhoo, the pageant is on feb. 19 at pasig convention center. >.< im nervous as hell. i STILL don't have any ideas as to what to wear. *shrugs* ah, well. you guys better wish me luck. im still working on selling the damn tickets ^_~ daan kayo school! :)

jesse surprised me yesterday with a bouquet of roses--and the only reason i was surprised was coz i was on duty in the emergency room and he came waltzing in like he owned the place. the nurses wouldn't let me hear the end of it. he's very very nice, but im enjoying my single life for the meantime. :)

okay, gonna go rush. love you guys!